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  Hi to all my family and friends!! My email address is changing...just like me. My new email will be as follows:  Theversedhead@aim.com. If you want to email me, just click on it, and you should go right to the email for me. I picked versed head because it's unique, and it's medical, and since I am an ex paramedic, and have worked in the hospital setting for almost ten years, I think I selected the appropriate name! Versed, is much like the drug made in the lab called GHB. It provides a wonderful blissful state of unconsciousness, along with preanesthesia amnesia ( I can't remember shit since i went into surgery!). I first was introduced to it long ago when my urologist at the time gave it to me before a lithotripsy for a kidney stone. I have had about 23 kidney stones since I was about 18 years old. I am 35 now. It hurts the equivalent of a woman with labor pains. The greatest part about the drug, given oftentimes along with Fentanyl, for me is trying to fight the soon-to-be-unconscious state. You will have feelings of sleepiness, extreme calm, floating feeling, like you are onward bound toward the heavens. My wife has tried and cannot stay awake and goes right out as they are pushing the Versed. I like my ability to fight it, giving a little slurred speech, and telling everyone to i don't give a fuck about anything....zzzzz....As the doctors talk to you to try to keep you awake, you fight the sensation of being put out into darkness. It's impossible, but it's fun. The Versed always wins. That's what I like to do. I like to win. I like to win hearts, I like to win minds, just like a drug. Come drift awaaaaayyyy with meeeeee......

  A nurse I work with found a wonderful little story online and shared it with me. I felt like many people out there should read it because it touched me so much. It's really great to think about. Attitude is everything.

 

A 92 year old, petite, well-poised and proud man, who is fully dressed each morning by eight o'clock, with his hair fashionably coifed and shaved perfectly, even though he is legally blind, moved to a nursing home today. His wife of 70 years recently passed away, making the move necessary. After many hours of waiting patiently in the lobby of the nursing home, he smiled sweetly when told his room was ready. As he maneuvered his walker into the elevator, I provided a visual description of his tiny room, including the eyelet sheets that had been hung on his window. " I love it!" he stated with the enthusiasm of an eight-year-old having just been presented with a new puppy. "Mr. Jones, you haven't seen the room, just wait." "That doesn't have anything to do with it," he replied.  "Happiness is something you decide ahead of time. Whether I like my room or not doesn't depend on how the furniture is arranged...it's how I arrange my mind. I already decided to love it. "It's a descision I make every morning when I wake up. I have a choice; I can spend the day in bed recounting the difficulty I have with the parts of my body that no longer work, or get out of bed and be thankful for the ones that do. Each day is a gift, and as long as my eyes open, I'll focus on the new day and all the happy memories I've stored away. Just for this time in my life. Old age is like a bank account. You withdraw from what you've put in. So, my advice to you would be to deposit a lot of happiness in the bank account of memories! Thank you for your part in filling my Memory bank. I am still depositing. " Remember the five simple rules to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hatred

2. Free your mind from worries

3. Live simply

4. Give more

5. Expect less

 It's kind of funny how love is. You meet this person, fall in love, and before you know it they are gone. That's why I want to stress the importance to everyone who reads this, what exactly love is and what I think it means. Love is patient, it waits home for you, it waits for you to drive up and pick it up, it waits for you to run to it with a smile like you've missed it for an eternity. Love is kind, it loves you and runs to you even if you are not at your best. It's like a little puppy dog who wants a pet, wants your attention, wants to know that you love it, and that you've missed it while you were gone. It remains by your side, protecting you, being the nicest person it can be to you. Love does not seek the fullfilment of others, it seeks only one, it's only soul mate, the person it fell for years ago. It does not have thoughts of leaving, but of thoughts that things will work. Love is the strongest power on the planet, and when you find it, don't let it slip away like I feel I did. I took something great, made an ass of myself, and lost one of the best people on this earth. I had a frown on my face when she greeted me at the door with a smile. I walked away when she was trying to get close to me. I shut her out, when she came knocking on the door to my soul. You can see a persons soul through their eyes, it's like a window, and I only wish that she could see mine right now as I am writing this blog. The tears are running like a rainy day in Seattle, and I feel so alone. I have friends who try to be there for me, but they don't take the place of love. Nothing takes the place of love. She saw me online once and asked me if I were seeing someone else. Did i have another girl? I have only one girl, and that is her. I haven't taken my ring off for one night, because the ring that I wear stands for an eternity of loving, and that to me is the most sacred thing on earth. Our pastor who married us, said our wedding ring is a circle that goes on forever and ever. He was right. How could I have been so blind as to not see love right in front of me. I see it now, but whether she sees it and feels it is another story. She is hurt beyond belief. Her once gentle, giving caring heart may be calloused over with doubts about how much I really do love her. I want to tell HER and the world this. I have loved you from day one, and as sure as the sun rose each morning, I would seek to find something in this life that would make you feel proud of something I had done. Time was always an issue, in that there never seemed to be enough. If I could roll back time, I would roll it back to when we had our first dance after getting married, holding you in my arms, knowing how good it felt to be your protector. If only I could do that now. This life goes by so fast and everything eventually disappears, even the ones we love. What I miss most of all is that first dance, because I looked into your eyes as I towered above you and I could tell at that moment you were the happiest little lady on earth. And God never shorted you on the size of your heart. I miss you now, today, and always. If I had this life to do over again, there would be a lot of things I would change about me. I would never be so hard on the ones I love again, because this life truly is a blessing, and all the things that are wonderful that come with it, including Tina.

What stores like Walmart, JcPenney, Gap, etc. need to get through their thick heads is the fact that half the women in this country are overweight. It doesn't mean you should tell a woman who has a few extra pounds that she has no business wearing certain styles like halter, miniskirts, and the like. I've seen women on modeling runways that are nothing more than a skinny clotheshanger and that is not even being realistic with what the normal body type should be. No one wants to be 300 lbs, but then again i would rather have bbw (big beautiful woman) than a skeleton with skin on it. I am sick and tired of seeing people significant in my life going around feeling self conscious because of what some skinny bitch said or dirty look that she was given. People should be allowed to wear whatever they choose. They should be allowed to go to a club or wherever and wear a halter designed to flaunt their size 38d boobs, and miniskirts that show off there beautiful legs. I am very very proud of my wife for not taking what people in advertising want us to believe is the perfect body too wholeheartedly. I think there are people in this country who are very jealous, who do not want others to have any sense of self esteem. I think all the overweight women who once were not afraid to wear "slut" clothes like their 98lb. rivals, should get out there and flaunt what they have and be proud because many many many guys in this world love you!        HERE IS A LINK TO A REALLY COOL PLUS SIZE CLOTHING SITE!! THIS STUFF IS SUPER SEXY!!    http://www.biggalslingerie.com/index.html

For those of you who have never heard the term Sacroilitis, don't feel like you are alone. I didn't know such a thing existed until roughly two to three months ago when my wife was diagnosed with this along with DJD. For those of you who have experienced the pain and treatments of sacroilitis, then my heart goes out to you and i would love to hear what worked for you! For those of you who do not know or understand this condition, i will attempt to explain. Sacroilitis is basically the inflammation of the SI ( Sacro iliac ) joints that hold the lower half of the spine (basically your tailbone) to the back of the pelvis. There is a small area of bone in the upward center of the back of your pelvis that is held tightly to the back of your pelvis with several little finger type joints that allow limited movement. Because of it's little movement, doctors have been reluctant in past years that such a thing with limited motion can cause such pain. The fact is that as we age this joint can become stiff and actually "lock". This joint only moves about 2-4 millimeters when we flex or bear weight. The joints main function is thought to be a sort of shock absorber for the spine as tensions and weight are distributed, stretching the joints in various directions. Injuries such as falling , motor vehicle accidents, a blow to the side of the pelvis, or degenerative arthritis (osteoarthritis) can cause can cause the ligaments that hold these SI joints in place to to be strained, thus cause way too much motion in the joint. The excessive motion can eventually lead to wear and tear arthritis in the joints. Doctors may offer two solutions, exact opposites of each other. Stabilization or mobilization. if you are determined to have degenerative arthritic conditions, rest and medication might be the best fix, if the doctor feel the joint is too immobile and stiff, then exercises such as walking and physical therapy might prove helpful. I ask now of anyone who has experienced such pain and diagnosis to please come forward and help the many other americans who share this misfortune. Please tell us what eases YOUR pain. Inquiring minds want to know.

What is aspartame? It is a synthesized compound composed of 50% phenylalanine (an amino acid), 40% aspartic acid (also an amino acid) and 10% methanol (basically, wood alcohol.) In aspartame, methanol is the bond that holds phenylalanine and aspartic acid together. Methanol is highly toxic, especially as it breaks down into formaldehyde (embalming fluid) and formic acid (ant sting venom). It is found in more than 5000 different consumer products including jello, chewing gum, soft drinks, candy, etc.

Aspartame-containing products which are ingested in the real- world are chemically very different than 98-100% aspartame which is given in laboratory experiments. The large amount of breakdown products such as DKP, free phenylalanine, methanol, and others such as formaldehyde may play an important role in aspartame's negative health affects. Aspartame's strong tendancy to react with other food ingredients to form unique chemical compounds and the tendancy of the free amino acids to racemize at high temperatures are also very important considerations regarding its toxicity.

"The inability to account for as much as thirty-nine (39) percent of [aspartame's] decomposition products is significant. With such a high unknown factor, judgments about the safety of [aspartame] in soft drinks, exposed to both hot and cold temperatures, cannot be made confidently."

It's important to realize that when the temperature of aspartame exceeds 86 degrees F., the wood alcohol in aspartame coverts to formaldehyde and then to formic acid, which in turn causes metabolic acidosis. (Formic acid is the poison found in the sting of fire ants). As methanol toxicity mimics multiple sclerosis, some people have been diagnosed with having multiple sclerosis in error.

10 percent of aspartame is absorbed into the bloodstream as methanol (wood alcohol). The Environmental Protection Agency defines safe consumption as no more than 7.8 milligrams per day of this dangerous substance. A one-liter beverage, sweetened with aspartame, contains about 56 milligrams of wood alcohol, or eight times the EPA limit!

Aspartame's breakdown products, or metabolites, are even scarier than its components. Phenylalanine decomposes into diketopiperazine (DKP) a known carcinogen, when exposed to warm temperatures or prolonged storage. Even if products are consistently kept at cooler temperatures we are not safe. At cold temperatures, methanol will spontaneously give rise to a colorless toxin known as formaldehyde. Independent studies have shown formaldehyde formation, resulting from aspartame ingestion, to be extremely common. It accumulates within the cells, and reacts with cellular proteins such as enzymes and DNA. This cumulative reaction could spell grave consequences for those who consume aspartame-laden diet drinks and foods on a daily basis.

Among the very many complications and disease processes that can arise from aspartame use, one very important one to consider is it's effects on male and female fertility. A number of studies done revealed reduced fertility in both males and females, shrunken testes and ovaries were seen in the original studies done by the makers of aspartame...we see a reduction in the gonadotrophins ICSH, FSH, LH, and prolactin. In addition there are direct effects on the sperm and ova.

Although these complications are mindblowing, the FDA will not pull aspartame from the market. After many attempts by consumers and physicians, the FDA only states that it has other pressing issues to worry about. Feel free to go to any search engine and type in Aspartame Toxic Effects and read more for your own confirmation and research.